What a wild ride life is!
Today has been an emotionl rollercoaster. Last night I got very little sleep. Detoxing???? Maybe. I spent the night in a state of anxiety with heart palpitations and repeated flight fight response. Normally nights like that come afer junk food or wine or hot cooked tomatoedishes. To top it off it sounded like a tornado outside with the winds whooo who whooing all night. I definately felt uneasy.
I couldn't get my act together this morning. I found it difficult to think clearly. I ended up starting work late. But I did weigh in at 135.1kg. Thats a 2kg loss.
Good symptoms/changes
more energy
arthritis improved
increased motivation
bad symptoms
can't think clearly (*brain fog)
mild but consistant headache
restless legs
Today I ate
Storms strawberry shortcake )delish)
2 apples
1 tangello
handful pecans
marinated mushrooms, avo, sunflower sprouts and cucumber
I would have eaten dinner but my youngest son who is 8 year old was staying at a friends house and the father rang. He rang to tell me Daniel had come off a motorbike and connected with some barb wire.
Oh what a mess....cuts a scrapes to his eye lids and a puncture spot that went through his eyelid to the eyeball. no permanent damage they think but scary just the same. We spent 5 hours in hospital but he is home now with antibiotics and receiving a tetnus injection. What a lucky boy he is.
off to sleep now, i am exhausted and falling asleep whilst writing
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
Losing control and the amazing Philip McCluskey
The difference between being 10kg and 80kg overweight is more than just a whole heap of fat. I imagine that a normal healthy eater could gain 10kg overtime and then a light switches on....ding....I better do something about that. Easy peasy.
Not to undermine how hard someone might have to work to loose 10kg or anything its just that when your 80kg overweight its a whole different kettle of fish. Firstly I could lose 10kg without anyone noticing. But as well there are more underlying deeper issues for the person who has allowed themselves to loose such control.
Occasionally I get a little glimpse of what my deeper issue is..........strange, very strange. I actually feel the need for someone to save me. A knight in shiny armour maybe? I want someone to come in, take control of my diet. Deep deep down I just want someone to help me.
But no one is going to save me or should I say the only person equiped to save me is me.
Oh SHIT its all up to me.
I am the master of my own destiny. The captain of my ship. If I don't help myself........well that brings me to the Philip McCluskey part.
I just happened to hear a Kevin Gianni interview with this wonderful man yesterday and he said a couple of things that made me sit up and take notice. The first one scared me. He said something like
HAVE YOU EVER NOTICED THAT THERE ARE NO VERY FAT OLDER PEOPLE. THATS BECAUSE THEIR DEAD.
Its as simple as that...very fat people don't live long.
I'm fat and I personally would like to live to see my children grow up, to see their children. Philip really had me after that comment. And then he talked about something I've thought about before but never really tried. Philip swapped to 100% raw overnight but decided to eat whatever and as much as he wanted as long as it was raw. Simply replacing junk food for raw food. He said that although the recommendations were to eat 1 handful of nuts he ate 10 but still he gradually lost weight and over time his appetite reduced as well.
So forget juice feasting for now, forget starving myself and counting calories. I'm going to give Philips ideas a go. It sits well with me. Sounds good.....actually it sounds like a plan. Although I will be concentrating on staying righthere in the now and not thinking too far ahead.
Where ever you are Philip I send out thanks to you. You have inspired me and now lets see how I go.
weight today 137.1kg
Breakfast msm in water with lemon juice plus huge green smoothie with orange, banana, lettuce and green superfoods with probiotics and colloidal minerals.
Feeling....A big headache but happy. :)
Not to undermine how hard someone might have to work to loose 10kg or anything its just that when your 80kg overweight its a whole different kettle of fish. Firstly I could lose 10kg without anyone noticing. But as well there are more underlying deeper issues for the person who has allowed themselves to loose such control.
Occasionally I get a little glimpse of what my deeper issue is..........strange, very strange. I actually feel the need for someone to save me. A knight in shiny armour maybe? I want someone to come in, take control of my diet. Deep deep down I just want someone to help me.
But no one is going to save me or should I say the only person equiped to save me is me.
Oh SHIT its all up to me.
I am the master of my own destiny. The captain of my ship. If I don't help myself........well that brings me to the Philip McCluskey part.
I just happened to hear a Kevin Gianni interview with this wonderful man yesterday and he said a couple of things that made me sit up and take notice. The first one scared me. He said something like
HAVE YOU EVER NOTICED THAT THERE ARE NO VERY FAT OLDER PEOPLE. THATS BECAUSE THEIR DEAD.
Its as simple as that...very fat people don't live long.
I'm fat and I personally would like to live to see my children grow up, to see their children. Philip really had me after that comment. And then he talked about something I've thought about before but never really tried. Philip swapped to 100% raw overnight but decided to eat whatever and as much as he wanted as long as it was raw. Simply replacing junk food for raw food. He said that although the recommendations were to eat 1 handful of nuts he ate 10 but still he gradually lost weight and over time his appetite reduced as well.
So forget juice feasting for now, forget starving myself and counting calories. I'm going to give Philips ideas a go. It sits well with me. Sounds good.....actually it sounds like a plan. Although I will be concentrating on staying righthere in the now and not thinking too far ahead.
Where ever you are Philip I send out thanks to you. You have inspired me and now lets see how I go.
weight today 137.1kg
Breakfast msm in water with lemon juice plus huge green smoothie with orange, banana, lettuce and green superfoods with probiotics and colloidal minerals.
Feeling....A big headache but happy. :)
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